NOTE: This post of mine was made when I was really tired and should have been sleeping. But I just had to get this off of my chest. I realize it isn't the most coherent thing I ever wrote, but it is what it is.
I haven't gone through nearly as much as darkmanx or any of the other guys this past year, but hoo boy was this last year crazy. First, there's a bunch of drama involved in one of my older brother's relationships that, thankfully, worked itself out and led to him getting married.
Then, I finally took the class that I for the field I was majoring in, but had so much trouble that I had to withdraw from the class lest I risk an F on my academic record, which has sent me down a dark path of questioning what field I want to go into. I am considering programming, but that is not something that I have been working towards. On the bright side, if I can pass this semester, I would have taken all of the classes needed to get my Associate's and possibly transfer to a bigger university, if the finances will allow me to do so. What makes all of this bad is that, outside of chores I do around my parents' house, I have not had an actual 9-5 job ever in my life. What makes it difficult for me to go job searching is that I have a hard time with college as it is, what with having to study as much as you do compared to high school, which takes time out of what could have been me looking for jobs and sending out applications.
Last, but not least, there is this idiot of a "friend" of mine. He wants me to play COD: Zombies All. The. Damn. Time. Even when I have a big test to study for, I get a text, "do you want to play online?" For one thing, I am tired of playing the same maps over and over, and I also am tired of him as well. He is unwilling to compromise and play something else, and he will make excuses about why he won't do something, and, when I accuse him of doing so, he accuses me back of being judgmental, when he was judgmental over me wearing a shirt over to his house that he didn't like. This wasn't some shirt that was shaky or anything; it was just a picture of Call of Duty: Advanced Warfare. However, since this friend of mine is a Treyarch and Xbox fanboy, he will do whatever he can to tick me off if I don't agree with him about everything.
Another thing I had going on this last year was me building a gaming PC, and he did not like that due to him wanting me to get the Xbox One. For what, you may ask? Call of Duty Black Ops 3, a game with system requirements that he could afford more easily than I could. (the game is not demanding at all) He has two part time jobs, where as I had to go and practically sell all of the systems and games that I had to get the PC put together that I am using right now to type all of this. If he wants to accuse anyone of being judgmental, he should be realizing he's no better. But no, he's always right, and I'm wrong. He was so desperate that he bought me an Xbox One even though he said he would not do so. All of this contributes to the latest problem that occurred last night, where I told him that I don't want to play Black Ops 3 until he goes to bed since I had stuff to do when I arrived home, and, not to mention, I had spent my afternoon playing the game with him, and had other games I'd rather play. We got into a heated argument before I left, and, while he thinks I'm his friend, the truth is, I just want to be done with him. He does not respect me for who I am, and he does not take responsibility for how he treats me. I put up with him ever since high school and, while I enjoyed being around him then, it just pissed me off to no end when I started going to college how he just didn't care for my goals and what it takes to accomplish them.
Throughout all of this, I just wish I had someone who was willing to accept me for who I was, and not criticize me destructively for what I am not. Not to mention, my big goal in life right now is getting a job so I can get a consistent stream of income for myself so that way I can be financially independent of my parents and do some of the things that I really want to do. But when you have friends from your high school days that don't mature, classes that you thought you could pass being much harder than anticipated, and unnecessary drama, I just about lost it at times near the end of 2015 in particular.
I apologize for this long post.