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Off Topic => Off Topic => Topic started by: Mooning Freddy on June 03, 2011, 12:38:18 PM
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Yeah, I know that the topic sounds like some teenage emo-rant, but seriously though.
Have you ever had a subject that you wanted to discuss or an idea, and really wished you could tell someone about it but never had, because you knew "nobody cares about it anyway"? It sometimes makes me depressed because even with my closest friends, there are some things I can't discuss. Me and my friends don't share many interests, and although I like them, I feel like none of them REALLY knows me.
Most people usually like me, because I'm quite friendly and can get along with almost anyone. Even when I don't like a person, or I'm annoyed by him, I'd rather ignore him than let him know. Not the healthiest behavior ever; I know, because I frown until I can no longer take it, and then I explode in outbursts of rage that leave everyone around shocked, and myself full of remorse. It happened to me a couple of times in the army.
I always try to make an impression so people would like me, but it's hard, and leaves you with a feeling of unfulfillment.
Anyway, if someone ever felt similar, please share your emotions.
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Yes, i have the same problems with you and i also am a very friendly and open to others person and because of that, they tend to tell me all the problems they have, expecting from me to comfort them.
My best friends also they don't know me 100% and i also sometimes feel that they don't underestand me or the thinks that i do and why i did them........resulting in that sometimes, i don't feel that comfortable to tell an idea of mine or how i feel, because i afraid that they will not underestand me and that they will start to criticize me.
We don't like to be alone, but we also don't like to be with others sometimes........
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I think I understand where you're coming from. You know, people like me as well, but I don't have an overabundance of friends and I'm fine with that. People actually go out of their way to try to be my friend (for some reason), and after a while of being with them, they often really start to bother me. They say and do niggling/insulting/inconsiderate things that rub me the wrong way, and understandably so. Those things pile up and I eventually cut ties with them. I don't often make a big scene about it, I just... avoid them, I guess, until they get the hint. This has happened more than once and I wondered if something was wrong with me sometimes... like, maybe I'm too irritable, or something. Then I realized that most people do get bothered by things like that, but they put up with those things and then vent about them to other people, put up with them more, vent more, and so on and so on. I just break things off. If people are bringing me stress into my life, I don't need them there. Of course, I have really good friends that doesn't happen with.
About the "nobody cares" thing, I think the internet can help with that. For example, I can't go on at length with too many people I know personally about Castlevania, but I have plenty of online pals (like beingthehero, for example) that I can talk to about that. I'm not going to inconvenience people who couldn't care less with my ramblings about my favorite game series. Likewise, beingthehero isn't going to want to hear about my vintage Fender amplifier or about the differences between a Fender American Standard Telecaster and a Fender American Special Telecaster, so I go to people who will. This can apply to things of a more personal nature, as well. If you feel no one you personally know will care about what you have to say about something you want to discuss, there are places you can go online where you know people will hear you out.
But, yeah, I've definitely had... "friends" who I feel I don't know, and who I feel don't know me. That's an interesting spot to be in sometimes.
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This is something I can relate to.
I get this feeling that no matter where I'm at, people just don't give a rat's *expletive* that I'm there, sometimes. I'll try to talk to people about my interests, and they have no idea what I'm talking about. And then eventually people start ignoring me cuz apparently I get annoying, which I won't deny. I do talk a lot. I can actually stop for a moment and think about the people that really do understand me, and the number isn't a very big one, I'll tell you that. Constantly cuz of this feeling of "not being understood", I tend to think I'm useless.
And I agree with Successor. The internet is actually place where you can get away from that crap. I love Castlevania, but there's not really anyone I know personally that does, too. But then I found places like the Dungeon or the CVBla board that actually talk about it and love it as much as I do. And then to get rid of that "useless" factor about me, I took up spriting, or the ability to create, rip, gain any resource I could for people here or anyone who needs them.
Some people find that a pathetic way to cope with things, but that's just annoying. I find it a reasonable way to deal with things.
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And then to get rid of that "useless" factor about me, I took up spriting, or the ability to create, rip, gain any resource I could for people here or anyone who needs them.
Some people find that a pathetic way to cope with things, but that's just annoying. I find it a reasonable way to deal with things.
That's actually a really good thing to do. I learned at a very young age (actually, it just came naturally to me) how to entertain myself. Sometimes my friends would be out doing nothing in particular, and I'd be cooped up in my house doing something I felt was enriching, like learning HTML, Flash, Photoshop, working on my website, working on my music and getting better at that, exercising, and so on. In the end, that turned out a heck of a lot more fulfilling than getting together with them and screwing around. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with hanging out with friends, but being overly reliant on them to have a good time is bad.
Friends have been like that with me and I've seen some people just shatter into a million pieces when I cut ties with them, due to them bugging the crap out of me (I know that sounds mean, but I always had good reasons). Because without me there was this big gaping hole in their life that they couldn't fill because they didn't really have a lot going on there that wasn't somehow depending on me. That's a dangerous way to live. For instance, recently, I... um... kicked the other guitar player in my band out (again, good reasons), and the guy was shattered. I mean, brought to tears... I'd never seen him like that before.
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That's actually a really good thing to do. I learned at a very young age (actually, it just came naturally to me) how to entertain myself. Sometimes my friends would be out doing nothing in particular, and I'd be cooped up in my house doing something I felt was enriching, like learning HTML, Flash, Photoshop, working on my website, working on my music and getting better at that, exercising, and so on. In the end, that turned out a heck of a lot more fulfilling than getting together with them and screwing around. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with hanging out with friends, but being overly reliant on them to have a good time is bad.
Friends have been like that with me and I've seen some people just shatter into a million pieces when I cut ties with them, due to them bugging the crap out of me (I know that sounds mean, but I always had good reasons). Because without me there was this big gaping hole in their life that they couldn't fill because they didn't really have a lot going on there that wasn't somehow depending on me. That's a dangerous way to live. For instance, recently, I... um... kicked the other guitar player in my band out (again, good reasons), and the guy was shattered. I mean, brought to tears... I'd never seen him like that before.
When someone is over-reliant on you, then yeah, cutting ties (even temporarily) is a good way to show them that they'll have to go on without you. They can't keep piggybacking off you and stuff. Same goes vice versa. You can't keep piggying off of others (not directed at anyone, by the way).
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Have you ever felt that no one understands you?
This is me in frigg'n spades. I was born learning disabled and it's NOT fun. I could never learn things the others could and would feel frustrated and angry. Being picked on, disrespected and treated like an outcast was my cross to bare. I lived my entire life (so far) with only being 50% aware of it. Being a natural loner was kind of a savings grace for me during this turbulent time. While I do have some friends, they are far and few while the rest are acquaintances (good ones, mind you). There were times that I even considered suicide because I felt that nobody could understand me. I would sit by myself and have nagging contemplations of how I would take my own life. Depression was also on a high note for me as well. Whenever I tried to tell people things that I had on my mind, I just couldn't. It wasn't just that I made the conscious decision to not speak my mind, it was the fact that I could not get my thoughts out of my mouth without screwing up the translation process. Even thoughts that were on the tip of my tongue would suddenly drop out of my mind for some unknown reason, leaving me in a blank state and making me feel stupid and utterly useless. Since going down south about seven years ago for some special schooling, I'm much better then I was before I left. However this was also very dangerous for me as becoming more aware of myself also brought up some extremely painful memories that I really wasn't aware of before. The depression has lessened a lot more but unfortunately it has since been replaced by my inner anger and rage. I do well to hide it and nobody really notices it or even cares. I've never physically harmed anyone and that was of my own choice as I did make a silent promises to myself; Harm thyself before harming others. While this is extremely unhealthy (and painful) it has it's benefits. Even today I feel that nobody understands me. Even if I'm on the ball and know what I'm talking about, others will simply brush me off as if I'm still that little bastard child with a broken mind. I know that I've changed inside but some still don't get it and see me in the other light that I wish would simply switch off.
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I don't have any friend anymore (because of my depression). But my family, especially my father understands me.
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I don't have any friend anymore (because of my depression). But my family, especially my father understands me.
I can relate to this especially.
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I used to feel that way. As I grew older, though...not so much. Sure, there are a bunch of people I'm acquainted with who don't understand me so well (though nowadays not so much either, most of those people on Livejournal, for instance, d-friended a while ago), but at this stage of my life I've also got folks who really do get me, and who I know I can talk with about anything and who I know have got my back. Heck, even some folks I haven't known for years and years really do get me to some extent--always willing to lend me a friendly ear, at least. Some are from the CV fandom; folks like Jimmy or PFG or Jorge or Bloodreign. Others are from other places. But wherever they're from, their friendship is enough to give me one spark of light I can look at and say, "I'm not alone," no matter how dark it is around me.
Haha, sorry for the melodrama. I think I may just be unusually lucky in that regard. Still, you never know...even if you feel nobody understands you, who knows? Maybe you'll find someone who does where you least expect it. :D
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Haha, sorry for the melodrama. I think I may just be unusually lucky in that regard. Still, you never know...even if you feel nobody understands you, who knows? Maybe you'll find someone who does where you least expect it. :D
Funny how much this quote relates to what you said.
"If an alien comes to live among you, you shall not oppress him, rather you shall love the alien as you love yourself."
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I don't think two people, no matter how similar those two people are, can ever really "get" one another fully. There will always be things that perplex us about another person. So the "Me too, me too!"s are a tad ridiculous, because I'm sure everybody in the world can relate to this.
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because I'm sure everybody in the world can relate to this.
Some can relate more than others, cuz some of us think that no one understands them more than others. It's more or less natural to agree with others, you know. Just sayin'. :P
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I'm happy that I'm not the only one who ever feels this way, and I'm glad that I created a subject many can relate to.
Well, I don't think that everyone can relate to this. I've met my share of people who seem to be always satisfied with their lives and never feel lonely or "misplaced".
There was this guy whom I spoke with in the army. Were were chatting about our hobbies and lives where we lived. I told him that I studied in a very large High school, and hardly knew anyone in there except my class.
He responded that he studied in a school just as big as mine , but unlike me, he knew every single person who studied there.
This surprised me, as it obviously didn't make sense. I said, "really?"
And he answered, "yeah, when I had a birthday, I invited my entire school."
"Why would you?"
"Why wouldn't I? They're all my friends."
This is where I realized the conversation isn't gonna become any more interesting. The guy was either trying to show off, or had a far wider definition to "friend" than I had.
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Yeah, there are those egotistical pricks that have never once felt misunderstood. >.>
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Well, I don't think that everyone can relate to this. I've met my share of people who seem to be always satisfied with their lives and never feel lonely or "misplaced".
Being misunderstood doesn't automatically equate to being despondent about it. A lot of my friends over the years have thought they've figured me out, making sometimes rather cruel assessments and giving me no air to speak the truth, sticking instead to their own analyses. Thinking they know how my mind works, why I like or dislike certain things. For a while I got a little bummed about it because I don't have many people I can really relate to—most of my closest friends at the moment have very little in common with me—but I'm at a point where it just doesn't bother me very much. I'm not moping about it, at any rate.
If anyone seriously claims to never feel like nobody understands them, they're either too proud of themselves to admit it, or are too vapid-minded to ever come to a point in life where it's ever an issue. That's what I think, anyway.
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Just did read the opener message. sry folks.
And yeah, that sounds like its me...never say a such bad thing about someone...always be happy and have a smiley in ur face..But if u say one time what u think...all are shocked like u say...hilarious...
More than a year ago, there happend not a funny thing in my life, not funny at all for me. Since that, im just unhappy, every single day...
everyone except my mother doesnt know how i feel. My best friend thinks its all fine with me and im over that...but im not...
and we live together lol...still awsome...
I feel with you...
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Funny how much this quote relates to what you said.
"If an alien comes to live among you, you shall not oppress him, rather you shall love the alien as you love yourself."
Haha, I guess it does, though I didn't think of that when I wrote it (been a while since I changed my sig xD). But like I said, maybe Im just lucky ^^
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Haha, I guess it does, though I didn't think of that when I wrote it (been a while since I changed my sig xD). But like I said, maybe Im just lucky ^^
It just caught my eye and I had to point it out. ^.^
Being misunderstood doesn't automatically equate to being despondent about it. A lot of my friends over the years have thought they've figured me out, making sometimes rather cruel assessments and giving me no air to speak the truth, sticking instead to their own analyses. Thinking they know how my mind works, why I like or dislike certain things. For a while I got a little bummed about it because I don't have many people I can really relate to—most of my closest friends at the moment have very little in common with me—but I'm at a point where it just doesn't bother me very much. I'm not moping about it, at any rate.
If anyone seriously claims to never feel like nobody understands them, they're either too proud of themselves to admit it, or are too vapid-minded to ever come to a point in life where it's ever an issue. That's what I think, anyway.
Well, let's face it. Everyone feels at one point that no one understands them, and sometimes they feel it quite often. Sometimes they take it harder (lol dirty) than other people would. It's not an issue of pride or being "vapid-minded", whatever that means (I srsly don't know). Everybody wants to feel accepted or understood in life. Saying you don't, well, that's being too proud there.
Put simply, everyone feels this way. Everyone has every right to mope about it if they want to. I know I do a lot. Plus, it makes them feel better putting it out there and having someone connect to them about it.
Just did read the opener message. sry folks.
And yeah, that sounds like its me...never say a such bad thing about someone...always be happy and have a smiley in ur face..But if u say one time what u think...all are shocked like u say...hilarious...
More than a year ago, there happend not a funny thing in my life, not funny at all for me. Since that, im just unhappy, every single day...
everyone except my mother doesnt know how i feel. My best friend thinks its all fine with me and im over that...but im not...
and we live together lol...still awsome...
I feel with you...
I feel for you, man. I'd go on a story about losing someone in my family, but honestly I was too young to take it all in and I don't quite remember everything that happened. Mostly bits and pieces. I know I was really sad to the point I wouldn't even leave my room for like, a week (except to use the bathroom and shower).
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I feel for you, man. I'd go on a story about losing someone in my family, but honestly I was too young to take it all in and I don't quite remember everything that happened. Mostly bits and pieces. I know I was really sad to the point I wouldn't even leave my room for like, a week (except to use the bathroom and shower).
Things like that just suck :/ But you are still not over it. Doesnt matter if you can remember every single detail or just a few pics...But the feelings at that time were there...I can remember things when i was 3 years old...not good things tho. lol
Life sucks if u lose something that was maybe everything for you... :/
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Things like that just suck :/ But you are still not over it. Doesnt matter if you can remember every single detail or just a few pics...But the feelings at that time were there...I can remember things when i was 3 years old...not good things tho. lol
Life sucks if u lose something that was maybe everything for you... :/
Yup. And sometimes, people just don't get that maybe you're still hurting. They don't quite understand that, unless they've gone through it before. I still kinda hurt from it, even though it was a long time ago and I hardly remember what happened.
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Have you ever felt that no one understands you?
I think this happens to the best of us. There will be moments in our lives that we will feel lonely. Isolated, even.
I actually experienced this not too long ago. For the longest time, I've been associating myself with people who will talk to me for a while and then when they are done with me, they will ignore me, even though I am always sitting with them. Now that I think about it, the same thing happened to me a few years back, too. I know it's painful when you hang out with a group of people, trusting they would have the same interests as you or understand you, and at the end, they end up betraying that trust. That might mean that you haven't found the right people to be friends with. Even now, I am searching for that right group of people.
^ By the right people, I mean, people who you could forge a bond with, that you could depend on them, and you would not have to voice your thoughts to, and they understand and most importantly, they care. These people would spend time to get to know you for who you are and not for what they think you are.
As to how I cope with it; I have a category for people [I know it's not the best way, but it works.], for people who I just met, and probably won't ever see again or only see once in a while, I will categorize them as acquaintances. Sure, you might have a good time chatting with them, but will they spend time trying to get to know you better? Second, for people who open up to me, telling me their life plans and sharing their secrets with me, then and only then will I categorize them as friends. They are giving you their trust and probably are fine to talk to you about anything. If they don't understand certain things, do educate them. And if they brush off the things you tell them, it's a sign they didn't care as much as they should and you should put them into the "acquaintances" category. As I mentioned before, real friends will spend time learning about you, and they will not treat you like a chat buddy.