This topic has reminded me of a Mighty Max cartoon episode. I only remember certain parts, most of them vaguely save one, but the gist is there was a giant, furry tarantula like spider in the episode that the bad guy was controlling. Some shit went down, Max won of course & they were escaping a collapsing temple or something. On the way out they pass by the spider trapped under some rubble-Max & crew rush past as the spider gives them a look of, "So you're leaving me...I do not wish to die, and am somewhat surprised that one espousing virtue such as yourself would leave me to my fate, but at the same time I expected this. I must accept it with dignity, though I am not at peace...", or at least that's what little Laina got from that glance. I cried...I'm tearing up a little now in fact.
Let me break down my feelings for the spider: it makes me think about when creatures in real life feel like that-fear, terror, being trapped, in immense pain mentally & physically, alone, facing death with no comfort whatsoever. When creatures are in terrible situations like that, when people like Max that are supposed to be heroes, people in positions of power who willingly refuse to try save everyone, or if they're truly not able to & they don't even acknowledge the tragedy of that fact. It was more than upsetting to think the heroes aren't always like Jesus; that they don't always forgive, save & then welcome the bad guy with open arms if he's willing to come over. It made me realize that there is no safety net, nothing is guaranteed & that life isn't sacred to all. It made me realize that there is true, profound, unending darkness in this world. That was horrifying to me at the time...and that's what that spider represented to 8 year old me-horror. That spider was an avatar of horror. *sigh* I need a shower...
This goes deeper & as I've grown, I've began to see some positive sides to this revelation from childhood on how the world works, but I've written a book up there. Honestly, I sometimes believe I could write a thesis paper on this. But this is the CVD & we ain't got time for that crazy mess! This is a place to relax & forget real life for a few moments as we smile & giggle at Gunlord's signature prunyuu~'s, tales & pictures of people's kitties, and MooningFreddy sparking political/philosophical debates. That's right, this place serves an actual helpful purpose-who'da thunk it?