Thanks uzo!
It's very hard sometimes living in a small town when you are not just another clone of society standards.
Even harder when, what you want to find, is something that society perceives as wrong. People is also very religious where I live. I think I believe in God, I mean, my family is all into religion, I'm just kind of in the middle, but I know that if there is a God, He wouldn't care if the strongest love I felt in my life was for another girl. On the contrary, he would be happy for that pure love.
There's plenty of other things that God wouldn't like. I remember in high school other girls calling me "a slut" because I used to read "dirty magazines" (ecchi mangas). But what about them, going to parties, getting drunk and having random sex with random people? That thing, that this same small town society, didn't condemn. The other girls were "cool", but I was "weird" because my "magazines" had suggestive artworks in the cover. I don't understand it.
Anyway... now it's about the future.
Well here's the thing - if God is all powerful and all knowing and s/he created everything, then s/he knew you would like women the moment s/he created the universe and chose to make you that way, along with everything else that ever has or will happen. If this is the case then why would God be mad at you for being the way s/he created you?
Thanks again to both of you!
+1 to everyone again :)
If everyone is OK with that, I'll add people who comforted me to my friends list (the ones I didn't have already).
I will watch that anime, thanks for the recommendation, Shiroi!
If everyone is OK with that, I'll add people who comforted me to my friends list (the ones I didn't have already).
I will watch that anime, thanks for the recommendation, Shiroi!
And don't focus on what society gives you, alright?
Cause, you know.... They suck. :P
Pfil, let me start off by saying you seem like a sweet, loving, absolutely adorable girl. Seriously, I really get this air of feminine & cute from you. You also seem quite intelligent & capable, but, like myself, in need of a little confidence. Hopefully, you've found some of that here, especially in this post. Speaking of, I'm also glad that you feel like you can come to the dungeon for advice/venting-makes me feel all important like, being part of a respectable community & whatnot.Awww! ♥♥♥ How sweet of you!!! Thanks, thanks, really!!! Thank you very much!!!
Anyway, I can only second a few previous posters sentiments-middle school/high school was garbage, it meant nothing much then & means even less now (think negative numbers in value). I live in a small town myself & am also attracted to both men & women, but have to keep that sort of guarded because of social constraints/familial obligation. It's rough, but I know you can find happiness out there somewhere. As Ratty & Incubus said, it'll probably sneak up on you, wrestle you to the ground & force it's feel-goods on you. Just enjoy the moment, enjoy being you being you-well all do. *hugs*
^_^ ありがとう! (arigatou! I'm learning Japanese right now, so Shiroi, correct me if I did that wrong, I JUST got done with the hiragana portion of my lessons)
You got that right!
Keep on learning more Japanese and take the burden of translation off of me! /joke
lol I actually wouldn't mind to once I'm more advanced in my lessons; I feel like it would benefit me in the longrun & I don't mind helping you & Nagumo out at all. I'm just beginning right now & trying to learn & retain as much as I can. It should really pick up this fall when I start college classes for Japanese. I'm trying to get a degree in English teaching so I cam actually move to Japan & make a life for myself there. Wish me luck!
Well, honestly, only you know what is best for yourself and not others. :D