I'm tired. I have a full time job interpreting into ASL (which is often tiring, and sometimes exhausting). I have a part time teaching job (weekly adding 6 hours of teaching, 2 hours of drive time, ?!? hours of planning and grading time -- 13 hours of this is all more time out and away from home). I have 2 kids -- wonderful kids whom I love dearly, but kids are just tiring. I'm *trying* to spend time with them and be a good dad, and *trying* to be a good husband by spending time with my wife, giving her a break from the kids, and helping with various home responsibilities. I'm a natural night owl -- long story short: I've tried to change this for 10+ years and it just doesn't. Even now when I'm so tired, I still get a second wind or pass out in a nap.
I love all these things I have and get to do, but I wish I had more energy or time. I'm surviving off caffeine more than I'd like (trying to curb it whenever possible). I want to help my wife more because she's just the best and I love her and she deserves it; I want to play through more of my games more often and there are some awesome new things coming out; but I'm just so tired. I'm sure I'm "doing a good job" -- I know this in my head. I'm awful at accepting it "in my heart" though.
And, crazy as it sounds if you consider this post, I (we) want to have another kid. It hasn't been a successful plan so far, which is also frustrating.