Topic: RIP JewWario

[Ratty]

It appears that Justin Carmical, aka JewWario, has taken his own life. I feel terrible for his wife and family. His wife was apparently locked on the other side of the bathroom door talking to him when it happened. I never watched much of his work but I've always been thankful that he introduced me to this badass Castlevania clone.


You Can Play This Until We Win - Holy Diver

[Neobelmont]

No freaking way. What he always seemed to be a happy guy he was one of the reason why I wanted to get a famicom so badly his reviews were so insightful into japanese gaming wow that's crazy.

one of my favorites was this

YCPT - 3.1 - Nazo no Murasamejou (Finnish Subtitles)


R.I.P man wow.

[X]

Some people may seem happy on the outside, but they could be in a world of hurt on the inside. I would know cause that's how I feel at times though I cover it up fairly well. It's no fun to know someone whom has taken their own life because they felt the futility in living, feel like they carry the weight of the whole world on their shoulders or feel as though they are completely alone. I don't even want to know how his family is handling this and to think it happened when his wife was right there.

[GuyStarwind]

I heard about this earlier and this is so sad. I always thought he was funny. My heart goes out to his family.

[Gunlord]

I read about this on one of my message board. My condolences go out to his family, especially his wife.

[Bloodreign]

What possesses anyone to take their own life? Sure you may be hurting on the inside, but doing this you may think you are solving your own pain, but you are now making others suffer for you, very selfish.

There's no changing my mind on this either, I had a cousin OD himself leaving behind a then at the time 6 year old daughter. JewWario does not have my condolences or respect, just his wife. Fucking classless clown that couldn't bear the weight in life we all have and live with everyday, yet we get along just fine. 

[theplottwist]

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People seem to think that when you're on the verge of suicide because of depression (what appears to have been JewWario's case), all you're thinking about is yourself. And in fact it is, but not in a selfish "it's all about meee!! Give me attention, give me things, love me!" manner.

Selfishness is something reserved for those thinking rationally. Depression disables rationality. It muddles your perception of reality, and twists it in a manner as to make you feel so worthless that your presence is not making a shred of difference on the world, all while making you think that it'd be better if you disappeared (if you ceased existing, all the disconfort you cause others with your problems, and your own pain will cease existing too, right?). It's a feeling of unimportance on an unbearable scale. And it's not like those "If I go sleep, this bad feeling will be gone". The person afflicted stops accounting for the future. They want an answer right now.

It's not about yourself. It's about your importance to the whole that is humanity. Sure, you can be told every fucking day how you're important on the lives of those around you, but that's not how a depressive brain works. You know you are important, but you don't feel important. You feel nothing at all; It's just like having an infinite void eating all your energy and thoughs every damn day, until it has consumed your whole being. Everything just stops being important, as you feel more and more insignificant.

The brain is damaged, the mind becomes warped when you're depressed. You cannot be selfish, because you cannot be anything but terrorized with your own insignificance.

When you decide for suicide, it's almost like you are finally deciding over something. You feel like you finally have the power to change everything. You feel as if the control, amidst all this darkness controlling your mind, has finally been given back to you. You can end it once and for all. But you're unable to recognize anything else. You're unable to recognize the impact this will have on the life of others. You cannot be selfish when you don't even have a sense of "self" anymore. You're not intentionally making it all about yourself. All you seek is to reclaim normality, and make it all stop. You stop recognizing the world around you because you feel like an insignificant atom; Unseen by all, unable to change anything about it.

Of course all this is unnatural and wicked. Depression is all about your head not working properly and leading you to reckless actions.

I tried to explain to the best I could how it feels. When you cease feeling important, you cease seeing importance. And depression is making you feel uninportant all the time. It's nigh impossible to fight irrationality rationally. All you want is to stop feeling uninportant. Stop feeling anything at all. I know it's confusing and seems contradictory, but that's what went through my mind when I felt like this before. I dunno, maybe it's different for others. But I feel personally hurt when someone says the person is only being selfish, for selfishness' sake, even though I know it was not for me.

When you watch the person onscreen, you have this feeling that they are immortal, with no problems, and will always be there. But when these things happen, reality comes crashing down again. I hope Justin's family can do well without him. My condolences for his family and friends.

[KaZudra]

That really sucks, he was one of the good reviewers... I hope the best for his family

[X]

What possesses anyone to take their own life? Sure you may be hurting on the inside, but doing this you may think you are solving your own pain, but you are now making others suffer for you, very selfish.

There's no changing my mind on this either, I had a cousin OD himself leaving behind a then at the time 6 year old daughter. JewWario does not have my condolences or respect, just his wife. Fucking classless clown that couldn't bear the weight in life we all have and live with everyday, yet we get along just fine. 

Wow. Just...wow. You really want to lower yourself like this? A respectable moderator like yourself? If you want to bash neo-nazis, members of the KKK or Al-Qaeda extremists, no problems there. But this?? This is someone who was suffering and you blatantly attack him when it's not even his fault. Depression is something that can and has broken people throughout human history, and it is also the main cause of suicide. Yet dispute this fact you blame it on the individual rather then the cause. That's pretty disgusting. If his wife ever heard you talk like this... Man just unbelievable.

[Bloodreign]

When you've lost family members to suicide, you learn to become bitter when others do it. I'm not the world's happiest person either, but I learned to overcome, I found something in life I enjoyed that keeps me going, I don't give a damn what anyone thinks honestly. Yes I too was depressed a lot, felt the weight of the world was on my shoulders, still do, but I don't let it eat at me. So don't give me lip about my personal opinion on this, find something in life that can give you that happy medium, seek help, all that, it's out there.

I stand by my belief that if you think you can stop your pain by offing yourself, and putting others more in a world of hurt, then you gave up too easily. In the case of my deceased cousin I find him selfish because a woman who he was to marry left him one week prior to getting married, left him an unstable mess the rest of his days. But he has a daughter with this woman, she was 6 years old, he never thought about being there for her anymore, not letting her have a dad in her life, how is that not unselfish?  You go find that help, you do whatever it takes to overcome in life.

And if you still think I'm a jackass for being truthful and honest, so be it. Sometimes I speak my mind and don't hide it. I had an uncle years ago, tried killing himself 3 times, never succeeding till one day he died of a heart attack, why he did so, I never asked my mom, plus he died when I was 7. My dad thought of suicide at one point years before his death of dementia (which he had, but his death certificate said he died of that, pneumonia actually did him in, he died right in front of me), why because his back was hurting from a work injury, but he sought help and got it, those thoughts never occurred again with him. The dementia was hereditary, and could've also been spurred by alcoholism for 17 years.

If you think I'm stooping low for no reason, then you don't know me well enough, I've seen too much tragedy in my life already. I've also the misfortune of my own mother blaming my dad for her problems and not giving a damn that he's dead, and years later still bringing up problems that he may have caused her, still think I'm a  happy guy? Thing is I can learn to overcome it and smile through the pain and know I'm alive for a good reason. You know BR the online guy, you don't know BR the guy in real life, two totally different personas. This time I chose to bring my real life persona into this as this topic hit close to home for me.

With this guy we don't know if he had a chemical imbalance in his brain (though far as I know there are medications for that), or something that may have been fixable in his life was eating away at him. If it's the former, my apologies, if it's the latter, no excuses.

If you don't like my opinion of it, tough. I've said my part and am done with this. I've basically left some of my life story in this topic to show you some of the things I have been through and life and still live as strong as I can. I know you are depressed, do as I do and find that happy medium in life, don't let anyone step on you for it. Keep your damned chin up everyday, go to a mirror and smile, feel happy to be alive. Might not seem like much to you, but trust me, it helps.

[X]

Yes I too was depressed a lot, felt the weight of the world was on my shoulders, still do, but I don't let it eat at me. So don't give me lip about my personal opinion on this, find something in life that can give you that happy medium, seek help, all that, it's out there.

Many people out there don't have this 'strength' that you talk of. To me it sounded like the old additive: Grow a think skin. This saying is flawed on so many levels and those who coined the phrase don't have a damned clue about the truth of humanity. In other words we're all different and what works for one person is not a guarantee it will work for another. Not everyone is strong and while some succeed many others fail. It is very selfish to blame the victim when he or she has done all they can and in the end it's still not enough. That is why I gave you lip cause I feel you did not understand this very reason.

And if you still think I'm a jackass for being truthful and honest, so be it.

I don't think of you as being a jackass. You were honest with me and that's something I can respect. What is not respectful is attacking someone because they failed where you've succeeded.

If you think I'm stooping low for no reason, then you don't know me well enough, I've seen too much tragedy in my life already.

You're right, I don't know you. We've never met face to face so there is no way of knowing the 'you' through a computer, it's impossible.

If you don't like my opinion of it, tough. I've said my part and am done with this. I've basically left some of my life story in this topic to show you some of the things I have been through and life and still live as strong as I can.

And it's clear that you've lead a tough life. There's no debating that. But I feel you went about it in the wrong way. You should be using that toughness to help others rather then look down on them like a Vietnam Drill Sarge. The military mantality just doesn't work when humanity is made up of an infinite number of variables and is not black & white.

I know you are depressed, do as I do and find that happy medium in life, don't let anyone step on you for it. Keep your damned chin up everyday, go to a mirror and smile, feel happy to be alive. Might not seem like much to you, but trust me, it helps.

Now this is good advice from someone's who conquered personal adversity and lived to tell about it. And this is advice that I can definitely respect. Thanks Bloodreign 

[Bloodreign]

No problem, I've gotten used to dispensing advice as I deal with young people on a daily basis (though I'm no psychiatrist). 

[X]

Neither am I for that matter, lol!