Topic: Love... I don't know what to do about it...

[Pfil]

 

[Ratty]

Thanks again to both of you!
+1 to everyone again 
If everyone is OK with that, I'll add people who comforted me to my friends list (the ones I didn't have already).

I will watch that anime, thanks for the recommendation, Shiroi!

I'm sure all would be fine with that enjoy the show!

[Lone Wolf]

Being a Lone Wolf in this world is rare, dear. Don't be ashamed of it.
When life gives you bullets... Load the gun and give a shot!
And if you need someone to talk to, i'll be hanging around. And don't focus on what society gives you, alright?
Cause, you know.... They suck.
Just kidding. :p Good luck, and all the best to affort for you.

[Shiroi Koumori]

If everyone is OK with that, I'll add people who comforted me to my friends list (the ones I didn't have already).

I will watch that anime, thanks for the recommendation, Shiroi!

Sure. No problem! 

And don't focus on what society gives you, alright?
Cause, you know.... They suck.

Well, honestly, only you know what is best for yourself and not others. 

[Pfil]

Right now, I'd like to enjoy love with a partner while still having my family and friends near me, and the same work.
That's my dream for the future.

[Laina]

Pfil, let me start off by saying you seem like a sweet, loving, absolutely adorable girl. Seriously, I really get this air of feminine & cute from you. You also seem quite intelligent & capable, but, like myself, in need of a little confidence. Hopefully, you've found some of that here, especially in this post. Speaking of, I'm also glad that you feel like you can come to the dungeon for advice/venting-makes me feel all important like, being part of a respectable community & whatnot.

Anyway, I can only second a few previous posters sentiments-middle school/high school was garbage, it meant nothing much then & means even less now (think negative numbers in value). I live in a small town myself & am also attracted to both men & women, but have to keep that sort of guarded because of social constraints/familial obligation. It's rough, but I know you can find happiness out there somewhere. As Ratty & Incubus said, it'll probably sneak up on you, wrestle you to the ground & force it's feel-goods on you. Just enjoy the moment, enjoy being you-well all do. *hugs*

[Pfil]

Pfil, let me start off by saying you seem like a sweet, loving, absolutely adorable girl. Seriously, I really get this air of feminine & cute from you. You also seem quite intelligent & capable, but, like myself, in need of a little confidence. Hopefully, you've found some of that here, especially in this post. Speaking of, I'm also glad that you feel like you can come to the dungeon for advice/venting-makes me feel all important like, being part of a respectable community & whatnot.

Anyway, I can only second a few previous posters sentiments-middle school/high school was garbage, it meant nothing much then & means even less now (think negative numbers in value). I live in a small town myself & am also attracted to both men & women, but have to keep that sort of guarded because of social constraints/familial obligation. It's rough, but I know you can find happiness out there somewhere. As Ratty & Incubus said, it'll probably sneak up on you, wrestle you to the ground & force it's feel-goods on you. Just enjoy the moment, enjoy being you being you-well all do. *hugs*

Awww! ♥♥♥ How sweet of you!!! Thanks, thanks, really!!! Thank you very much!!!
I really love it here in the Dungeon, and in this topic I have found some comfort that is hard to get from people on "real life" (I mean, people from my daily life). I also found some "twin souls" that seem to have lived the same problems I had. It's very difficult to live on a conservative society and like people from the same sex. I've tried for years to get a boyfriend, but eventually I was burned by failures and short / bad relationships, and to make things worse (or better, I'd say) I realized who I truly was. I don't think I can fall for a man, it's just physical now, but I'm not even interested at this moment, I'm just thinking more and more about that sweet, magical night from years ago, and I'd like to have more of that.
I'm glad you feel important in this community. To me, you are the first, or one of the first persons I added to my friends list. I just really liked your posts and what I perceived from your personality. Sorry for not asking 
Yes, school really sucked. All of them. And I'm also not confident about what my parents would think about that. I'm sure they would have been really angry if they found us that night some years ago. They wanted me to be a typical woman, married (or at least engaged) by now. When I was 19, they still saw me as their "little girl with grade A". Their world would have been broken if they found me kissing a girl. Now, I don't know what they would think. If at any given time I find love they will eventually find out, but I won't care anymore because I will have a partner by then. But for now, I just keep it this way. Even my few friends from school, whom I see from time to time, don't know about this (maybe they suspect, though).
Thanks for your kind words! 
***hugs to you too***

[Laina]

You're welcome, dollface. No need to apologize for adding me to your friends list without permission, it tickles me that you'd consider me a friend. ^_^ ありがとう！ (arigatou! I'm learning Japanese right now, so Shiroi, correct me if I did that wrong, I JUST got done with the hiragana portion of my lessons)

[Shiroi Koumori]

^_^ ありがとう！ (arigatou! I'm learning Japanese right now, so Shiroi, correct me if I did that wrong, I JUST got done with the hiragana portion of my lessons)

You got that right!
Keep on learning more Japanese and take the burden of translation off of me! /joke

[Laina]

You got that right!
Keep on learning more Japanese and take the burden of translation off of me! /joke

lol I actually wouldn't mind to once I'm more advanced in my lessons; I feel like it would benefit me in the longrun & I don't mind helping you & Nagumo out at all. I'm just beginning right now & trying to learn & retain as much as I can. It should really pick up this fall when I start college classes for Japanese. I'm trying to get a degree in English teaching so I cam actually move to Japan & make a life for myself there. Wish me luck!

[Shiroi Koumori]

lol I actually wouldn't mind to once I'm more advanced in my lessons; I feel like it would benefit me in the longrun & I don't mind helping you & Nagumo out at all. I'm just beginning right now & trying to learn & retain as much as I can. It should really pick up this fall when I start college classes for Japanese. I'm trying to get a degree in English teaching so I cam actually move to Japan & make a life for myself there. Wish me luck!

You are an American thus it would be easy for you to get an English teaching job in Japan with a high salary to boot! Then......  spend it all on the goodies! nyahahahahaha!

[Lone Wolf]

Well, honestly, only you know what is best for yourself and not others. 

Uhmmm, yes! That's exactly what i meant to say. And.. Cause they also suck.

This is for Pfil:

If you feel like you're still disappointed with something, and really needing to give some laughs, don't worry, milady. Take a look:

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Charlie the Unicorn

Yeah.. Happy Chrismas. :3
Enjoy it! And "stand up foh yo right"!